Series 1 > Diary of Sir Archibald Johnston of Wariston 1632-1639

MEMENTO QUAMDIU VIVAS
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of Sathan under our bruysing to move us to murmure, to
despaire, to stand out, and to schift of Gods wrayth. On
Mononday morning the Lord assisted my meditation by the
meditation on the petitions of a traytour to his reconciled
souverainge. On Wedensday morning remember fc. after
prayer against thos thoughts, for the qukilk at night the Lord
maid the to mourne bitterly with ane great libertie of prayer.
On Sunday fornoone I was mooved at hearing 13 of Nehe- 4 May.
miah read and the 44 Ps. sung, quhilk seimed so fitt for the
dissimilitude of my tuo deliveries out of iEgipt and Babyl. Bot,
O my saule, never forget quhat unspeakable libertie of medita¬
tions, groans, and tears, the Lord gaive the in Georges Bailzie1
chalmer betuixt sermons, quherin, at the sight of thy mis-
deservings, thou submitted thy wil to Gods wil in contrarying
thy desyrs, and the wayes of his providence in thy first de-
lyverie. Thairafter, with I knou not quhat transporting
earnestnes and submissive humilitie, my saule and heart
resinged al thair thoughts, desyrs, and affections concerning
the particular of my mariage in Gods hands, attesting the
heavens, the earth, angels, and saints, Gods Sprit in me, and
my auin conscience, to beare witnesse to this my ful, total,
absolut, unlimitat resignation of my secretest thoughts and
inmost desyrs in that particular, and craiving, with tears,
pardon of my raschnes, propensnes, and carnal affections over¬
mutch sett this way. After this my resignation and attesta- U°l- 108.]
tion therto with unspeakable libertie of groans, tears, thoughts,4 ay'
and words, my saule and heart being as it wer transported in
som exstasie, it conjured, with ane most pourful livlie expres¬
sion, God the Fayther by his love of electing the, God the Son
by his love of redeaming the, God the Holy Ghost by his
love of sanctifying the, yea by al the bygon taikens of thair
affection quhilk ever they manifested to me inwardlie or out-
wardlie, and particularly in my first; yea my saule conjured
them, by thair love of thair auin glory and of the weal of thair
servants, that they wald hinder and stop this particular, yea
and preveine it by our deaths, if it preceded not from that
1 George Baillie, merchant burgess of Edinburgh, afterwards of Jerviswood,
married Wariston’s sister Margaret.
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