Series 1 > Diary of Sir Archibald Johnston of Wariston 1632-1639

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DIARY OF LORD WARISTON
noone, of the mysterie of mans redemption, of the jimp meet¬
ing therin of Gods most rigorous justice and most compassionat
mercie, of his great haytred to sin and his love to the sinner;
that, beforeyther sin went unpunisched or the sinner perisched,
he wald subject his only begottin, wealbeloved, to the igno¬
minious death of the crosse; by thir tuo my saule was
ravisched in admiration, my heart warmed for love of the on
and trembled for fear of the uther.
{foi. 205.] Upon Frayday and Saturday mornings remember fc. as also
is Mar. the wakning of thy old paine in thy stomak. On Sunday
16 Mar. morning, thy mynd, being wakned by ane memento from thy
seak stomak, tuyse poured out tears befor God, as also be-
tuixt sermons; al the tyme God was wonderfullie present with
the both in meditation and prayer, mooving the unexpressibly
to pray for ane deschairge of al thy abhominations bygon,
hot especialy of thos tuo since the last comnuion, quhilk after
innumbrable tears and groans Chryst seemed to scale up in thy
conscience; as also, afternoone, the Lord redoubled his presence
and maid me read over 77 Ps. and repeat al my petitions con¬
cerning my mariage after my ful, total, absolut resignation,
my mistrust of myselth, trust in him, with as extraordinar ane
libertie as ever I did in my first, conjuring the Lord not to
reject my prayers, disapoynt my trust, frustrat my hoopes
quhilk wer the three most ordinarie conditions to the quhilk
his promises in the word wer annexed, and in the saints
experimental delyverances ar most confirmed, so that I am
sure God was with me this day both in the morning, midday,
and evening, for the quhilk my saule thinks itselth mor obliged
and thanks him mor for it nor for ane earldome. That day
we sang the 34 Ps. and read the 9 of Ezra, as also befor supper
22 Ps. and after 38 of Isay. Al the weak follouing I was
caldreif and dead in al my privat exercises.
23 Mar. On Sunday againe betuixt sermons God was sensibly present
with me in meditation. After sermon he was wonderfully pre¬
sent with me in meditation with floods of tears, and in prayer
he fixed and glued my thoughts and desyrs to the blood of
Chryst, that I might find the pouer satisfactorie and meritorious
efficacie of it in reconciling, remitting, abaiting of sinne, stren-
thening and increassing of grace, in interceiding for and sup-