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EXAMINATIONS OF PERSONS UNDER SPIRITUAL CONCERN II
for some time and I having a good opinion of her I thought I was not worthy
of her company and yrfore she was taken away from me Still my Convictions
turnd more cutting and deep but at this time it was not known that I was
under any [. .] [. .] [. ..][.».]15 do I keept all within my self I
[608/-] wrought my work and forced my self to take my meat that I might
not be discovered to be in distress. But sometimes I did not sleep for the
concern upon my Spirit and when I was keept awake some passages would
have came into my mind with sweetness and I was made frequently To bless
the Lord that such comforting words to distressed souls were in the bible But
the particulars I do not now remember. My Convictions still continued only
I got more hope that God would shew Mercy to my Soul. I heard one of my
acquaintances16 in my Fathers17 house about the 12th of Feb. telling him of
Severals in y’ Congregation who had fallen under convictions A thought
came into my mind that nothing was ailing me and that others would get
mercy but I would be left of God in my Sins, that night I heard My Father
reading from Mr Guthries Tryal18 and by what I heard from that book my
convictions and distress increased so greatly upon my spirit y I was very near
bursting out before all in the House but I went out to the door to get my
distress concealed & to prevent my outcrying in their hearing When I had
gone to the door that word in Psal: 51 came to my mind with great power a
broken and a Contrite heart Lord thou wilt not despise19 which took off
much of the weight on my Spirit I was then made to see my heart was truly
broken & contrite under a Sense of my Sins and to hope y* Lord would not
despise me altogether and I was inabled to bless and thank God for what
encourgemt I had got at that time after which I went to one of my acquaintances
[ ]20 who knew of my youngest Sisters distress and Outgate and we spoke of
her together But my own distress for sin as dishonouring to God was so great
that I was forced to burst out in tears before her tho I did not tell her y' reason
that made me do so My Soul trouble continued upon me very heavy Next
day I went in to see another Neighbour [ ]21 experienced in religion who had
observed me under concern by my face and actions and Strictly charged me
to tell what was dealing with me and no more to conceal my case for that she
was sure something ailed me by ordinary but I could not speak out one word
to her of my Case and went immediatly out from her and returned to my
15 Illegible text due to worn tail-edge. The duplicate account in Volume I (p. 18) reads: ‘my
distress was not known to my Friends’.
16 Duplicate account in Volume I (pp. 15-25) identifies this person as Jean Galbreith (61) - lay
person, Cambuslang.
17 Duplicate account in Volume I (pp. 15—25) identifies this person as James Jackson (67) - elder,
Cambuslang.
18 William Guthrie, The Christians Great Interest.
19 Ps 51:17.
20 Insertion [‘Jean Robertson’]: McCulloch.
21 Insertion [‘Jean Galbreath’]: McCulloch.