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EXAMINATIONS OF PERSONS UNDER SPIRITUAL CONCERN II
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[..] [. • •][■• -]10 But I was [607/—] not much concerned about my self
as yet only I prayed more frequently on my bible and read my bible oftener
and took pleasure and in reading yt Minrs Sermons and the Weekly History
after it was published And I thought my own Mint preached much better
then he usd to do. In the month of December 1741 my own Minr11 had his
text in Now is the accepted time and We beseech you that y' received not y’
Grace of God in vain &c:12 Who said people heard the gospel as if they heard
not and heard it slightly I thought the minister was preaching to me when
he had that note and pointing at me as distinctly as if he had named me out
all the time of that sermon and I found I was one of these Sinners who had
received the Grace of God in vain which affected me so greatly that I was like
to cry out before the Congregation under a deep Sense of this and My other
Sins and how my unworthy communicating stared me in the face and Pierced
deep into my Conscience and my often allowed heart wandering in time of
Dutys of prayer and Praise and that I thought so little of Publick ordinances
dispensed by the Minrs after I had heard some of the North country Minrs
' of whom I had a great opinion I saw it was wrong in me to despise and under
value the Ministers of this Church These and many other Sins which I do
not now distinctly remember were very grievous to me After Sermons I went
j home in great grief for the evils I had done and I never had any such sight
Sights of Sin all my by past life as now I got of it I saw it as dishonouring &
provoking to a Holy God and I do not remember I was in any fear of hell at
all tho I had got a great sight of my sins After I went home I prayed to God
with more earnestness than ever I had done and I did not know that convictions
were dealing with me but I thought no body was so sinful as I in the Sight
of God I did not discover my Case to any mortal [ ] 13&c For several Sabbath
Days after this I thought the Minister was preaching preaching against my
sins and no other bodies but my own and I got more discoveries of y’ Evil of
my ways from time to time. And I thought sin was anoyr thing than ever I
had discovered it to be & I saw the corruption of my nature & my Evil heart
1,1 of Unbehef and that I could not be saved while I continued in that State of
lit Sin and under the power of Unbehef and I began to be afrraid that God would
not have mercy upon me because I saw my sins so great & provoking to God
About this time one of my Sisters14 went and stayed with my Married Sister
t 10 Illegible text due to worn tail-edge. The duplicate account in Volume I (p. 17) reads: ‘About
this time also, I was frequently hearing one of my Neighbors (61) speak of some people that
1 had been awakned at Glasgow, on whose lives there was a great change to the better.’
j! 11 Duplicate account in Volume I (pp. 15-25) identifies this person as William McCulloch
(26) - minister, Cambuslang.
ft 12 2 Co 6:1.
I" 13 Insertion [‘that had been awakned about that time on whose lives there was a great Change’]:
McCulloch.
|| 14 Duplicate account in Volume I (pp. 15-25) identifies this person as Elizabethjackson (81) - lay
f person, Cambuslang.