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EXAMINATIONS OF PERSONS UNDER SPIRITUAL CONCERN II
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could do it but Christ. After this I returned home and continued in great
distress till Wednsday and them I thought that Satan was not only about me
but drawing me by the feet down to Hell A preacher [f]8 came to see me
when I was under this apprehension but I would not allow him to speak any
words of comfort to me I said none could reheve me but He that had trode
the wine press of the Fathers wrath alone when of the people there was none
to help him But I desired that Preacher to pray for me when He desired me
to lay hold of a promise of the Bible he had before been speaking of But I
said I cannot not lay hold of any one promise in all the Bible. I found I had
no strength in my self but I saw all to relieve me But I saw that all my strength
must come from the Redeemer to relieve & save me yt Preacher desired me
to shew my bible to him [ ]9 but I would not let it go saying it was Gods
Holy Word I would not part with. After this He desired me to take some
refreshment to my body by meat & sleep, but I said I could rest none till I
got a Saving interest in Christ immediatly after this These words came into
my mind with power fear not for I will work a thorough work and a [602/-]
saving change and thou shalt taste of the Cup of My Wrath but not forever
and in a little after that word came also wt such poverty y I was forced to cry
out with Joy fear not for I am with thee10 I will lead the by the Hand
whethersoever thou goest After this I said O this has been a sore fore noon
but this is the sweetest fore afternoon yt Ever I had. Towards the end of that
same week it came into my mind that all I had met wt was but a delusion On
Sabbath a Minr (Mr Mat Connell) preached from Rom 8.15 Ye have not
received yt Spirit again unto fear but ye have received the Spirit of Adoption
whereby we cry Abba Father where he opened up the way how the Spirit of
God wrought upon the Hearts of his people I then found that what I had
met with exactly agreed to what yt Minr said about the Operations of the
Spirit of God and this was the means that relieved me from distress at that
time. Next day I came down to Camb: and heard y Minr there describe the
nature of unbehef and I was greatly affraid that I was still under its power &
I thought there no sinner among all that the people I saw like my self I saw
myself so vile in my own eyes because of my sins that I was forced to Cry
out O what have I been doing all my life against God and I thought I was
more vile than any creature & loathsome upon the account of my sins I saw
I brought a polluted nature into y world with me & that I had gone astray as
soon as I was born I thought I saw I justly deserved Gods wrath yea that a
1000 hells were little enough for me considering what I had done agt God. I
was then affraid of nothing but of God whom I had grievously offended
8 Insertion [‘f Mr David Connelll’]: McCulloch; David Connell (1706-90) - minister, E.
Kilbride.
9 Insertion [‘to point out a passage to me to meditate upon’]: McCulloch.
10 Gen 26:24, Isa 41:10, Isa 43:5.