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EXAMINATIONS OF PERSONS UNDER SPIRITUAL CONCERN II
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[573/—] b.i. A Woman of 44 years.1
In the former part of my Life before the last year I had along been kept outwardly
blameless before the World: and by my Acquaintance was reckoned a very
good naturd sort of Woman. And beside outward Civility, I had all along
from my Childhood a form of Religion. I had a way of praying in Secret for
ordinary once a day, and that was before I went to bed at night and when I
happened to go to bed without minding it, I would have been very uneasy
and sometimes in that case I would have risen again out of my bed & gone
about it, fearing I might perhaps die before tomorrow, and thinking I was
very unfit for it! And sometimes when I fell into straits or troubles I would
have prayed after than once a day. I usd also for ordinary to go to the Kirk on
Sabbaths; seeking food to my Soul, & sometimes I thought I got something
& sometimes nothing. One Sermon particularly I heard () on these words To
them that believe Christ is precious,2 affected me much: & tho I thought
all along that I had not an Interest in [574/-] Christ, yet I had a great desire
to have an Interest in him, & I thought I would not rest till I got it. When I
read or heard the word preachd formerly, & continually all was dark to me,
, I knew nothing of God or Christ to any purpose, I felt nothing of the life
and power of godliness as, blessed be God, I now do. And I really think and
feel in daylie Experience now, when I compare my present with my former
state, that there is as great a difference betwixt what I am now by grace, &
what I was formerly, as betwixt the darkest night & the clearest day.
When the Awakening at Cambuslang in Spring 1742, was much talkd of,
and some brought me good accounts of it, and some bad; yet I did not at all
beUeve the unfavourable Accounts, but still thought well of that Work, and
what I thought others were getting there, I came and thro’mercy preventing
|. mercy, got the same my Self. On the first Thursday of April I came to that
' Place, & heard a Minister (26)3 preach on that Text, I know you that ye have
not the Love of God in you,4 where he gave many Marks and [575/-] Evidences
! of these that had & had not the Love of God, & found what was said, brought
home to my heart, & was made clearly Sensible that I was one of these that did
i not love God: and particularly when he said. Those that loved God servd him
out of free choice & inclination, & would do so tho there were no rewards or
punishments hereafter: but they that did not so love God could not serve him;
, , 1 Marien Calendar — the shorthand text in McCulloch’s ‘Index of persons’ names who gave
the foregoing accounts to Mr. McC’ states: spouse of [. ..] Bailie. Taught to read the Bible
R when a child, got the Catechism to heart, and retained it.
■ 2 1 Pe 2:7.
i 3 William McCulloch (1691-1771) - minister, Cambuslang.
K 4 Jn 5:42.