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EXAMINATIONS OF PERSONS UNDER SPIRITUAL CONCERN II
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could not melt or mourn [336/-] for Sin as I saw I had reason: I now say my
Sins in their hainous & aggravated nature & endless number: And above all,
my neglcting the great Salvation, & rejecting the gra Christ in his Gospel Calls
& offers. And that word haunted me much. Prov. Because I have called & ye
have not answered, I have stretched out my hands & ye have not regarded,7
I also will laugh at your calamity & mock when your fear cometh;8 and so
did that other word, If our Gospel be hid it is hid to them that are lost.9
Which encreased my Concern & distress. I heard that Minister speak much of
Regeneration & Conversion: and my great Concern was to experience what
it was to be born again, & to be renewed in the Spirit of my mind, & what it
was to sorrow after a godly sort. My distress of Soul was such as debarrd my
eyes in a great measure from the rest & sleep. I inclind however to conceal it
from all as much as I could, & for that end, I sate up often reading and praying
after the rest of the Family were gone to bed.
[337/—] I was also thus imployed oftimes when I was at my Work, and none
were present to observe me. And one day when I was thus taken up, that word
was impress’d on my mind, Behold the Lords hand is not Shortned that he
cannot Save, nor his ear heavy that he cannot hear, but your iniquities have
hid his face from you:101 was thereupon made Sensible of Christs Sufficiency
& willingness to Save, but was made to grieve for my Sins, especially my
Slighting Christ in his Gospel offers, whereby I had provokd him to hide
his face from me. Another day when at my Work, that word, The blood of
Jesus Christ his Son cleanses us from all Sin:11 but I cannot now remember
what effect it had upon me.
At the Sacrament in Glasgow in October 1741, hearing a minister () Lecture
on the Fast day & speaking concerning the Children of Israel coming up
out of the Land of Egypt & eating the Passover with bitter herbs which he
explaind as signifying that godly for Sin with which persons should keep
the Gospel Passover: which I was made [338/—] earnestly to desire. Hearing
another Minister () on the Text How Shall I put thee among the Children12
I saw that to very applicable to my own case. Hearing another () []13 on the
Title of Christ, The Wonderful Counsellor I was greatly affected with what
he said from it concerning Christ: And when he came to shew who were
allowed & invited to come to the Lords Table I listned eagerly: And when
he spoke of these that were burdened under a Sense of Sin and were longing
to be relievd from it by Christ, I found that well agreeing to my Condition
7 Pr 1:24.
8 Pr 1 -.26.
9 2004:3.
10 Isa 59:1—2.
“ 1 Jn 1:7*
12 Jer 3:19.
13 Insertion [‘preach the action Sermon’]: McCulloch.