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EXAMINATIONS OF PERSONS UNDER SPIRITUAL CONCERN II
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[327/-] a.r. A Married Woman of 29 years.1
I liv’d a kind of moral Life all along from my Childhood: & usd to pray by my
self sometimes once sometimes twice a day, & to go to the Kirk on Sabbaths,
to see if I might get any good by doing so: but never got any sensible benefit,
except one time hearing a Minr () at a Sacrament Occasion in Kilsyth several
years ago, on that Text My Soul thirsteth for the living God:2 at which
time, I was a little grieved & uneasy about my Souls condition: but this soon
wore off again. I cannot say, that ever I could discern the Presence of God in
Prayer, or other duties, except only that I sometimes felt more enlargement
& more desires after God than at other times.
About the beginning of March 1742 I came to Camb. & heard a Minr
(26)3 preach on that Text, If any man be in Christ he is a New Creature old
things are past away, behold all things are become new:4 I was then made
to see that I was not in a safe State, for that Old things were not passd away
with me, & that all things were not made new with me. Upon this I turn’d
very uneasy, & was much grieved, that I had mispent much precious time,
and that I had not been rehgious in good Earnest as I ought to have been:
and had so much dishonoured God by my Sins.
[328/-] And particularly, that I had slighted & neglected Christ in the
Gospel, and that many a day when he has been knocking at the door of my
heart I did not open to him. I came often to Camb. & heard sermons there,
& got more & more discoveries of the Evil of Sin & of my heart-plagues.
And my heart-trouble continued for some weeks before I got any Out-gate
At the Barony Sacrament in Summer 1742, when I was sitting in the Kirk
between Sermons, these words came suddenly in my mind, Whom have I
in heaven but thee, O Lord, & there is none on Earth I desire beside thee :6
at which I felt the uneasiness I had been under instantly went off and I felt
great Love in my Soul to God as my Portion & Christ as my Saviour: and
could then express speak these words as expressing the real inward sense of
my own heart. And much of this frame continued with me that day and the
next: and after that I fell back into my former uneasiness, thinking I had lost
Agnes Burnside - the shorthand text in McCulloch’s ‘Index of persons’ names who gave
the foregoing accounts to Mr. McC’ states: spouse of James Rob, tenant in Shettleston.
Taught to read the Bible, got much of the Catechism by heart, and retained it.
Ps 42:2.
William McCulloch (1691-1771) - minister, Cambuslang.
2 Co 5:17.
Text insertion (found on p. 148), beginning at the symbol to the bracket ‘]’.
Ps 73:2S.