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EXAMINATIONS OF PERSONS UNDER SPIRITUAL CONCERN II
Secret Prayer, that word that had been before sent came to me, came home to
me again, with with fresh Power, Will neither the voice of God in the Tempests
of the Air, or in the Threatnings of devouring fire & everlasting burnings
awaken you: Whereupon I was made sensible of my being, as before, that I
was dead in Sin & Carnal Security: and another word that followed not long
after, & that also came with power, further confirm’d me in the persuasion
that this was indeed my State, “[ ]6 Thou art yet in the gall of bitterness and
bond of iniquity.7 And now I was made to see my guilt of not improving
aright my first awakening when the words above mentioned came to me in
the year 1740: & I continued uneasy in my mind about my Soul State after
this: And [322/-] some little time after hearing a Minister (26) preaching in
the Kirk-yeard of Camb. & giving several marks of Unregenerate persons,
when he said, [ ]8 things go outwardly well with him in the world, then are
usually easy & think all is right: I found this to be applied to me with Power;
and was made sensible that this had been indeed my Case, and that it had been
was a sign of my being truly in an unregenerate state. I was very uneasy in
mind at that time, but neither cry’d out fainted or swooned at that or at any
other time. Nor had I ever any Visions. Immediatly after this Word in the
Sermon struck my heart, that word, (tho not utter’d by the Minister) came in
with power, Then shall ye know if ye follow on to know the Lord;9 upon
which I was made to hope that there was yet hope concerning me, and that
if I followed on to know him & seek him I would find him; & I found a great
weight taken off my Spirit, & went home that night with much composure.
And at a meeting of a Company of Young People that night, I could not
[323/—] forbear telling them. That I could never say, That I had a Right to
Christ before that day. And what made me think I had a Right to him, was,
that whereas formerly I always thought there was [ ]10 something in my own
Duties to recommend me to God; that day, when that word came in, Then
shall ye know, if ye follow on to know the Lord,11 there came such a Divine
Light along with it to my mind. That I was made to see, That it was only
for the Sake of Christ & his Righteousness that I must be accepted, and was
persuaded at that time that I was accepted of God in him. I then was helped
to a reliance on Christ, & had some sensible Love to him & joy in him, &
wanted to have many engagd to praise him on my behalf.
I continued in this frame from some Days: but afterward began to doubt
whether it was the Lord was graciously dealing with my heart or no? But
while I was much disquieted with such thoughts, that word came in to my
6 Insertion [‘I perceive’]: McCulloch.
7 Ac 8:23.
8 Insertion [‘When’]: McCulloch.
9 Hos 6:3.
10 Insertion [‘or must be’]: McCulloch.
" Hos 6:3.