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EXAMINATIONS OF PERSONS UNDER SPIRITUAL CONCERN II
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himself with the Cords of Love & bands of a man, To which the Answer
was sent to my heart. That the work was begun, & the Cords of Love were
let down. The Second Sacrament at Cambuslang approaching, & while I
was resolving to attend there, & desiring the Lord might there shew me
the Evil of Sin, Satan, suggested that it was to no purpose to go to any
more such occasions, for that the day of grace was over with me, & that if
I saw the Evil of Sin I would despair. But the Lord gave me to hope that
he would yet bring me thro’ all my Difficultys. I heard a sermon there [ ]8
on that Text, The Lord thy God in the midst of thee is mighty, he will
save, he will rejoice over thee with joy, he will rest in his Love, he will joy
over thee with singing.91 was much affected with the many sweet & awful
things I heard in that sermon. On that Munday Morning, when I awaked,
& while I reflected on several Truths I had read & heard from the word,
these were so brought home to me. That I was made to see, That all that
ever I had done was Sin, in the Sight of a holy God, as to my sinful frame
& way of doing, & that I had broken all the commands of God, in thought
word & deed, & the commandment came and sin received & I died. On the
Thursday after, the Lord gave me a Sight & Sense of Original Sin [ ]10 That
I had the Seeds all Sin in my nature, & that I was justly liable to the wrath
of God on the account [313/—] of it, & my mouth was stopt before him, &
I was made sensible, that all my own righteousness was but as filthy rags,
& that God would be just, perfectly just, if he should have cast me out of
his sight & cast me into hell for ever, on the account of my Original &
Actual Sins, & therefore was made to justify God in all that he threatned &
inflicted for Sin, & to condemn my Self as justly deserving it all. But while
my Conscience & heart was thus burdened under a Sense of Sins of my
nature & fife; the Lord was pleased in Mercy, to relieve my almost fainting
perishing Soul, with that word that was then brought in to my heart with
much power, authority & sweetness, I even I am he that blotteth out thy
transgressions & will not remember thy sins,11 for my own names sake &c:
Many other gracious words were also at that time in like manner brought
home to my soul, such as. Thy Maker is thy husband, the Lord of hosts is
his name,12 Tho’ after my skin worms consume this body, yet in my flesh
shall I see God,13 To him that overcometh will I give a white stone with
a new name writen upon it which no man knoweth but he that receiveth
8 Insertion [‘By Mr Gillespy’]: McCulloch.
9 Side margin note: ‘Zeph.3.17’.
10 Insertion [‘& made me to see’]: McCulloch.
11 Isa 43:25.
12 15354:5.
13 Job 19:26.