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EXAMINATIONS OF PERSONS UNDER SPIRITUAL CONCERN II
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lie in my right hand.13 Which he explain’d as chiefly pointing at the Spiritual
Idolater: I found the various ways & instances whereby persons commit
Spiritual Idolatry set home so particularly & powerfully on my Conscience
& heart, that I thought I was just the person describd & levelled at, & was so
filled with anguish on that account, that even my bodily strength was quite
overcome, & I fell down as dead, and after was carried out in time of Sermon
as one dead, & laid me in the Kirk-yeard where I lay for some time like one
really dead. Some about me applied their Spirit-glasses to my nose, and when
that had no affect to awake me, they poured in Spirits into my nose (as I was
informed afterward) but all that had no Effect on me, & I believe tho’ they
had poured in these Spirits all the way up to my Brain, I would [ ]14 not once
have felt the Smell of them in the least. At length after a while [210/—] lying
in that Case, I was raisd out of that Swarf, tho not by the force of any thing
they applied; and after I had recovered a little out of it, they began to hold
their Spirit-Bottles again to my nose, to help me to recover better, as they
thought: but I bade them, Hold away their oyls & Spirits from me, it was not
that that I was wanting; what I wanted was the Oyl of the Spirit of Christ.
After I got a drink of water, I could then walk, & got up, & went in company
with another home: but after I got home I turnd stil more distress’d under a
sense of sin, especially my Spiritual Idolatry, and earnest longings after Christ.
I went to a Ministers () house, & at his desire stay’d all night there; & he gave
me many good advices & Instructions, & good Books to read: yet my trouble
continued, & I could attain to no relief or comfort, till next when I was on
the way coming home, These words came into my mind, The Lord thy God
is mighty, he is in the midst of thee, he will save, [211/-] he will rejoice over
thee with joy, he will rest in his love, he will rejoice over thee with singing.
\ Zeph. 3.17. I had fallen down by the way to pray, when these words came,
& they were attended with such a melting & brokenness of heart, that I got
my heart pour’d out before the Lord. I got but a very wavering hold of them,
; and unbelief so prevail’d, & I was filld with such a sense of my own sin and
*' unworthiness, that I could not get it believd that such precious words could
belong to such a sinner as I. And I could not think or remember that ever
I had read these words in the Bible. Nor did I ever know it, till about five
months after this, that I heard a minister at Cumbernauld Sacrament, cite
l these words & the place they were to be found, saying they were worthy to
, be written in Letters of gold, at hearing which joy filld & swelld my breast
that I was almost ready to burst, that it was with great difficulty that I was
j able to refrain crying. But, tho’ I can’t say I had much joy by means of these
1 words at the time [212/—] they first came, but was rather filld with unbeheving
Isa 44:20.
Insertion [‘threw water on my face and’]: McCulloch.