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J^JTYS LEWIS. 315
much. It's a queer idea, but I've often thought, of late that
if I had happened to be my own father I'd have brought
myself up much better. People may possibly think me selfish
for skedaddling, but I can't stand the disgrace. And there is
Suze, poor girl ! I couldn't look her in the face. It's lucky
there's been nothing definite between us. I must be going.
Something urges me."
" You've given me a shock, Will; " said I. " Many a time
liave your help and sympathy been very precious to me. But
I never remember the occasion, before to-night, when you
wanted sympathy yourself. Will you take one piece of advice
from me?"
« ' What is that, old fellow ? "
" Whenever you go, and wherever you go to, will you take
care to get a ticket of membership ? And, after you are settled
in your new home, will you enquire for the chapel and send on
your ticket to the deacons ? I may as well tell you the honest
truth, Will, I have a fear you'll go wrong."
"I had hoped," he replied, "that you wouldn't have
mentioned this; but since you've done so, I, too, must say
something which has been on my mind this long time. It
would take me a day to tell you all. For me to ask for a ticket
would be only humbug. I have dissembled a great deal too
much already. You fancy, I dare say, you know my history
pietty well ; but you know nothing. I can't conceal the fact
from myself that there isn't the least spark of religion about
uie. Do you remember your mother saying there was an " old
man " in my heart, and I making fun of her ? The old
woman was perfectly right. What she meant, as you know,
was depravity; only she had a rather odd name for it. I don't
know how to tell you the story of my mind, and I would much
rather not try. I feel, somehow, as if I were gospel-proof; and
I've not been able now, for some time, to remember a single
verse that doesn't tell against me. Lots of them come to mind,
now and then. To tell you the truth, I have not read the
Bible since I don't know when— because, as often as I did so,
those verses which were against me were the ones I always
spotted. I'm but young, and yet I feel as if I'd stolen a
march on the Gospel ; or I ought perhaps to say, as if I had
much. It's a queer idea, but I've often thought, of late that
if I had happened to be my own father I'd have brought
myself up much better. People may possibly think me selfish
for skedaddling, but I can't stand the disgrace. And there is
Suze, poor girl ! I couldn't look her in the face. It's lucky
there's been nothing definite between us. I must be going.
Something urges me."
" You've given me a shock, Will; " said I. " Many a time
liave your help and sympathy been very precious to me. But
I never remember the occasion, before to-night, when you
wanted sympathy yourself. Will you take one piece of advice
from me?"
« ' What is that, old fellow ? "
" Whenever you go, and wherever you go to, will you take
care to get a ticket of membership ? And, after you are settled
in your new home, will you enquire for the chapel and send on
your ticket to the deacons ? I may as well tell you the honest
truth, Will, I have a fear you'll go wrong."
"I had hoped," he replied, "that you wouldn't have
mentioned this; but since you've done so, I, too, must say
something which has been on my mind this long time. It
would take me a day to tell you all. For me to ask for a ticket
would be only humbug. I have dissembled a great deal too
much already. You fancy, I dare say, you know my history
pietty well ; but you know nothing. I can't conceal the fact
from myself that there isn't the least spark of religion about
uie. Do you remember your mother saying there was an " old
man " in my heart, and I making fun of her ? The old
woman was perfectly right. What she meant, as you know,
was depravity; only she had a rather odd name for it. I don't
know how to tell you the story of my mind, and I would much
rather not try. I feel, somehow, as if I were gospel-proof; and
I've not been able now, for some time, to remember a single
verse that doesn't tell against me. Lots of them come to mind,
now and then. To tell you the truth, I have not read the
Bible since I don't know when— because, as often as I did so,
those verses which were against me were the ones I always
spotted. I'm but young, and yet I feel as if I'd stolen a
march on the Gospel ; or I ought perhaps to say, as if I had
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Description | A selection of books from a collection of more than 500 titles, mostly on religious and literary topics. Also includes some material dealing with other Celtic languages and societies. Collection created towards the end of the 19th century by Lady Evelyn Stewart Murray. |
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Description | Selected items from five 'Special and Named Printed Collections'. Includes books in Gaelic and other Celtic languages, works about the Gaels, their languages, literature, culture and history. |
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