Series 1 > Diary of Sir Archibald Johnston of Wariston 1632-1639

DIARY, 1637-1639
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acquaintance, action, credit, respect, al carnal respects corrupt¬
ing the spritualitie of thy cariage (tnor nor the gold itselth
could doe), and so withholding or withdrauing his assistance
to me and successe in it; my negligent recomending this
busines to the Lord; my keeping silence at the praysing of
the Information, as it wer to gar them think I had the only
hand in it; the maner of my relaiting the authors of this
Information, as it wer laying the burden of it most on myselth ;
my secret ckitling at my auin thought of peoples conception
and report of it as myne only, and so stealing the prayse both
from God, and from man his treu instrument heirin. I craived
God pardon of thir and many uther particular miscariages in
this busines, requesting him not to harme the cause or his
saints the supplicants for my saik or by my means, bot to lay
the punischment on my person as the faults ar personal. I
resolved to cleanse and free my mynd of thos conceats,
respects, and thoughts; yea on the uther pairt, contrary to
thos hoopes, rayther to praepaire myselth for great troubles,
distresses, poverties, ignominies, torments, hazards quhilk ar
lyklie to fall upon me as soon as on any, both in respect of
my deservings inwardly wringing judgment out of Gods
hands, and in respect of the ennemies special eye upon al my
wayes, quhilk ar als wyde, loose, uncircumspect, and so opin to
censure and misconstructions, as of any mans in the cause,
and in respect of the toune of Edrs. persuit quhairin I trou
non uther schal compeir, or, if they doe, they wil never propone
any defence quhilk might any wayes be thought dangerous;
unto the quhilk I pray the Lord praepaire me for Chrysts saik.
That day I heard Mr. Hery Rollok, foranoone, doe wonder¬
fully weal upon the 9 v. 5 c. Job, ‘ Which doeth great
things and unsearcheable; and marveillous things without
number’; quhairin he insisted upon the pouer and majestic
of our great God descryved from his great, unsearcheable,
merveillous, innummerable works, quherby we sould learne to
feare him above al; to trust him above al, with the boldnes
of the three children; and to maik him our choyse, lot, and
portion; and so to fall doune with the Izraelits after the
sight of his wonderful burning up Elijas sacrafice, ‘ The Lord
he is the God, the Lord he is the God ’; and for to escheu
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