Series 1 > Diary of Sir Archibald Johnston of Wariston 1632-1639

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DIARY OF LORD WARISTON
election, of redemption, of justification, of sanctification, of
asternal glorification and condemnation every an after uther,
then the application of al to my auin saul, wer obversant and
presented to my mynd. At the glaunce of every on after
another the schuddnng wakned, my haire bended and a neu
rusch of tears gusched out; thir glaunces wer presented and
went by lyk spectacles on a theatre quhyl my saul was crying
without utterance, ‘ Deitie, Deitie, I adore, 1 adore, I adore.’
Quhyl my saul ran somtymes upon the contemplation of a
Deitie my thoughts wer in a confusion and som sort of fear;
hot, quhen it ran upon the conception of the Trinitie and
especyaly of the second person as clothed with our humain
nature, my sight was mor clear and sense mor sueat, then my
saul was as it wer separated from my body and so united as
to be maid on with him. In the tuinkling of ane eie, befor I
wist, behold the catologue of al my sins doone eyther befor or
since my calling presented to my memoire and mynd distinctly,
clearly, particularly, quhairat I begoud to trimble, my saul
ever crying without utterance ‘ Gods mercie, Gods mercie,
Gods mercie.’ On a sudainte, quhyl I am thus praying, behold
a neu rool of al Gods favors and blissings, outward, inward, of
his providence or indulgence on saul, body, or affairs old or
recent, quhairat my saul revived crying Haleluya, Haleluya.
Or ever I wist againe, behold a thrid of al my present wants,
desyres, necessities, wisses, hoopes, prayers, quhilk I was com¬
manded from within to summe up in a compend quhilk my
saul did, calling, ‘Fayther,glorifie thyselth in my lyfe and death
and thy servant after both; Fayther, graunt thou mercy to my
miserie and graice to my graicelesnes ; Fayther, give thyselth to
me and taik myselth to the that thou may be myne and I may
[M 6 ] be thyne, as thy spouse sayeth in hir song.’ I thought at this
tyme that my Jesus took my heart in his hand and knet it
and wrapped it within the heart of God, so that I found God
as it wer within my heart posessing and filling al the hirnes
and holes thairof, and I fand my heart and saul within the
heart of God contemplating, adoring, imbraicing his inmost
bouels, and turning, yea quheeling, itselth about as it wer within
his armes to see perfytly his inward pairts. I could not then
conceave, far les nou expres hou persuading and persuaded I