Series 1 > Diary of Sir Archibald Johnston of Wariston 1632-1639

MEMENTO QUAMDIU VIVAS
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never to be repented of, and to be greived in som kynd that
ever I professed the name of Chryst becaus, if God left me
non to my selth and to the tyrannical sclaverie of my sinnes,
my bygon profession of religion wil only serve to dishonor
God, scandalize the Gospel, aggravat my condemnation mor and
mor. A1 that morning my mynd was wakned with ane terrible
sight of my corruption, and was continualy poured out befor
God in floods of tears confessing, praying, praysing. Immediatly
thairafter I got my mothers lettre, and heard sermon in Leath on
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thy morning troubles; siklyk betuixt sermons and afternoone
thou got many tears instantly recomending thy present busines
to his indulgent providence. On Mononday morning, remember 20.
tuyse f.c.; foranoone I enterteaned Mr. Jhon Nisbet in ane
strainge discours of the inanite and vacuitie of al human con¬
tentments. On Foorsday morning I got som tears. On Saturday
I wryte tuo comforting lettres to H. H. after hir guidames
death. On Sunday morning I got aboundance of tears and
heard restraining grace defined ane separation of the wil
pouer and occasion of sinning.
On Mononday morning I got many tears; as also on Frayday
morning after f.c. craiving Gods blissing on thy vocation and
on thy mariage. On Saturday morning remember thy f.c. 1 F
after prayer and reading the 11 of Matheu ; as also hou after¬
noone thou hard hou bakward thy uncle Mr. Samuel was to this
purpose, quhairat, thy heart being greived and straited, thou
called to memoire thy mornings f.c. and cryed, ‘ O Lord, thou
art just quhen thou judgest.’ That sight of Gods vengeance on
the in thy delyght maid the, on Sunday morning 2 Feb., to weape
bitterly, as also in the kirk after singing the 145 Ps. at Mr.
Jhon Adamsons praefaice about the confession of the forlorne;
and, at the confession of our sinnes, as at the singing 146 Ps., I
was extraordinary mooved. Betuixt sermons, the spaice of ane
houre, it pleased God to humble me with aboundance of tears
ever remarquing Gods justice in punisching me yesterday im¬
mediatly after my fault. On Mononday and al that weak my
mynd was somquhat inclyned to ane good disposition; that
foranoone and on Wedensday afternoone I had religious dis¬
courses with H. H.