Series 1 > Diary of Sir Archibald Johnston of Wariston 1632-1639

28
DIARY OF LORD WARISTON
after the devils tempting the in the tonne by looking to thy
guidems windoues, remember hou thy saule was pressed doune
to the lauer hels betuixt 2 unsupportable burdens of affliction
and tentation; and after supper befor going to bed, and in thy
bed, Oh that unspeakable greif under the sense of both and
the hoplesnes of thy delyverie that oppressed thy saule, and
maid the to groane, murne, and lament beyond al expression.
O my saule, remember hou, both on Wedensday night and on
Frayday night quhence thou went to bed so dejected, God maid
the to dreame al thos nights of thy sinnes, thy repentance,
and Gods reconciliation.
13 July. Saturday morning fand the in thy yesternights disposition
oppressed with greif and almost at the brink of desperation
under the hoplesnes of delyvery from thos 2 unsupportable
burdens, ay until thou read the hinmist 3 verses of the 11
of Matheu (‘Come unto me, al ye that ar weary and leaden,
and I wil releive you,1 etc.). Heir thy consciense bearing
the witnes of thy 3-fold leadning of thy bygon sinnes, of
Gods present wrayth against the for them, and of the tenta-
tions of my flesch quhilk every heure thou fears they suallou
the up irrecoverably, and also of thy wearines and oppressed
greif under the sense of them al; and, on the uther pairt, God
comanding me to come and promysing me releif, yea and my
experience of releif bygon obtained from them al three, on be
on separtly [sic], as from my sinnes at the going to com unions,
from affliction by som spiritual consolation, from tentation
once befor by my mariage, encouraged me al to fal doune on
my knees and thank him for his bygon delyveries, and instantly
craive at his hands that eyther he wald releive me according
to his promise nou conjunctly from them, or that he wald
assure me of reconciliation, comfort me spritually during my
affliction, and inable me to resist unto the tentation; and that
he wald be pleased in his auine tyme to delyver me out of them
al, eyther by calling my saule out of this valley of tears and
this body of death unto lyfe everlasting quhair my uther half
blisseth him aeterually, or by making me in my lyfe not to
scandilize his religion and my profession, hot rayther to further
his glory, the weal of his saints, and my auine salvation.
[pi. 17.-\ O saule, remember Saturday night, how thy sleap was evin