Series 1 > Diary of Sir Archibald Johnston of Wariston 1632-1639

MEMENTO QUAMDIU VIVAS
gone ilset affections (quhilk debarred me from trusting to the
in the beginning) pardoned in the blood of the Lord Jesus, I
disburdened myselth of al thos thoughts, doubts, and cairs, and
layd them on the Lord Jesus quho beareth al our burdens, and
cryed to the, O God, being reconciled with Jehoschaphat, ‘ I
knou not quhat to doe, bot my eies ar upon the’; hou oft, my
soule, best thou told the Lox-d that he loved the better nor thy
freinds nor thou did thy selth; he kneu better nor they nor
thou quhat war fittest for his glorie and thy weal; he was also
pourfuller nor they nor thou to bring to passe quhilk out of
his love he thought good for the ; and so, out of a necessite for
his glory and my comfort, I was forced to burden him with this
■caire, being fully and TrXrjpocfropuccos persuaded that God the
Fayther quho had not spaired his only begottin Sone for my
cause, and God the Sone quho had not spaired his aune body,
lyfe, and soule, and God the Holy Ghost quho had lodged in
my heart so long and had assured me of al thair favors,—they
three being the makers of my manage,—that come quhat wold
come I sould find, and al the world with me sould see and be
forced to acknoledge, Gods extraordinar indulgence and provi¬
dent cairfulnes to blisse me visibly in that manage; and only
on this goodnesse of God did my soule rely and not on any
secondary cause.
O my soule evin confesse thy weaknes and wryte doune the
order of Gods working with the; remember, befor thou layd al
over on God, thy affections had begune to wander about some
particular objects, bot God send the over unto Dury1 quhair he
chainged thy mynd by abstracting it from al particulars and
making it indifferent unto al, and to rely and look only unto
God and to no secondary cause nor any particular persone,
promising to use the secondary means quhilk was rayther
freinds counsel nor my aune affections; so, quhile I was in
1 Margaret and Elizabeth Craig were daughters of Sir Thomas Craig of
Kiccarton, the eminent feudal lawyer. Margaret married, January 14, 1596,
’ Sir Alexander Gibson of Durie, in the county of Fife, afterwards Lord Durie in
the Court of Session and Lord President of the Court, who died June 10, 1644.
Her sister Elizabeth married (1) James Johnston, merchant of Edinburgh, who
•died April 24, 1617; they were Wariston’s parents : she married (2), in 1629,
John Wilkie of Foulden, Co. Berwick.