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EXAMINATIONS OF PERSONS UNDER SPIRITUAL CONCERN II
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One night at prayer in Harvest 1742, when I was much afraid that all I had
met with, would have vanished & that my heart would turn as bad as ever
it was, that word came into my heart with much life & power, My grace is
sufficient for thee, my strength is made perfect in thy weakness,11 which
quickened me & warmd my heart with love to Christ.
At the tst 2d Sacrament at Camb. in T742 [ ]12 & the first 2d Sacrament
that same year, I found my heart warm’d with love to Christ, & some heart
melting for sin, tho’ not so much as I would have had; and felt it to be sweet
time to my Soul.
[$54/—] In talking to a Minister (16)13 and telling him of my hardness of
heart & other plagues, as he repeated over some sweet passages of Scripture,
exhorting me with the Spouse to go yet a little further, & to say with the
Psalmist, O Why art thou cast down O my soul & so disquieted within me
&c:141 felt what he said attended with such power as took as it were a great
load off my Spirit. My doubts as to my Interest in Christ were scattered, &
my heart enlarged.
Several promises have at times been brought into my heart with much life
& sweetness, & particularly at the 2d Sacrament at Cambuslang in 1743, as Ye
have not chosen me but I have chosen you, and ordained you that ye should
go forth & bear much fruit & that your fruit should remain.15 O my Soul
thou hast said unto the Lord, thou art my portion,16 Thou hast got a sight
of the promised land but it is yet afar off &c: [ ]17
The chief thing I for ordinary most breathe after is Sanctification & hohness:
the chief grievance I have, is that I have so little love to God, & that my heart
is so hard, that I can mourn so little for dishonouring him, & that I should be
so careless & secure. My chief delight is in Communion with God, and when
he is pleased to give me something of it, I then long for death & heaven. To
his name be praises.
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11 2 Co 12:9.
12 ‘ 1743 ’ superimposed over ‘ 1742’.
13 Alexander Webster (1707—84) — minister, Tolbooth/Edinburgh.
14 Ps 42:5, Ps 42:11, Ps 43:5.
15 Jn 13:16.
16 Ps 119:57.
17 Insertion [‘and at sometimes, I have been made to close give up my self to Christ to be saved
by him in his own way.’]: McCulloch.