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EXAMINATIONS OF PERSONS UNDER SPIRITUAL CONCERN II
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carried them all the days of old: which fill’d me with much comfort: & the
thoughts of Christs being afflicted in my afflictions lightned my trouble so
that I did not feel it.
One day reading on a Book, which spoke of Returns of Prayers & Sensible
Manifestations, I was much cast down at the thoughts that I knew scarce any
thing at all of that, as I then thought : but within a little after after when I had
been at Secret Prayer, that word came in to my heart. You hath he quickened
who were dead in trespasses and sins: by which I was much comforted, being
made to believe that God had quickened me from that death in Sin I had been
under, which was the great Blessing I had often been essaying to pray for.
One morning, these words were pressd on my heart, What things were
gain to me these I count loss for Christ, yea doubtless I count all things but
loss21 for the Excellency of the knowledge of Christ :221 then found it to be
so indeed with me: the things I had been much taken up with in my former
life, I now lost all relish and value for them, & counted them but loss dung
& dross compar’d with Christ: & I continue to do so still.
[398/-] One time when I was much troubled at the thoughts of my unbelief,
& thinking that I had no faith, or that any sort of belief, I had, was but a false
belief: But that word coming into my heart []23 Ye believe in God, believe
also in me;24 put away my heart trouble at these thoughts, & made me to see
that I had some Faith, & got some new strength and increase to my faith it.
One morning, that word came in to my heart,
Yea that most holy law of thine
I have within my heart.25
I was amaz’d to think, Could it indeed be so, that I had Gods laws in my heart?
And that word followed, That of I could win sincerely to ask this Blessing,
he was both able & willing to put his Laws in my heart: and trusted in him
to daylie enable me to do so.
, One day when I was in affliction, that word came in to me, Knowing
Tj that in Heaven ye have a more enduring substance,26 which reconcild my
mind to my afflicted Lot, in hopes of that better and enduring Lot of endless
blessedness in Heaven: And I thought that if it were not for these afflictions
I in Heaven on Earth, I might forget what manner of person I ought to be in
i all holy conversation & godliness, in the views of the approaching dissolution
I of all things here below.
j| 21 Insertion [‘loss and dung’]: McCulloch.
I 22 Php 3:7—8^
l| 23 Insertion [‘Let not your heart be troubled’]: McCulloch.
I 24 Jn 14:1-
IS 25 Ps 40:8, Scottish Psalter (metrical),
i, 26 Heb 10:34.