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EXAMINATIONS OF PERSONS UNDER SPIRITUAL CONCERN II
there is a Willingness on both sides, [269/—] he is willing, and you, I think,
are willing, what should hinder the concluding of the blessed Bargain, the
match between Christ and your Soul; Come then to him & I assure you []10
he will in no wise cast you out. At this she stopt her weeping a little, & seem’d
to be somewhat calm’d for a small space. Some considerable time after this
day, being asked what she was about during this Pause? She said, She was
aiming, in dependance on Grace, to believe in Christ, and to comply with
these gracious Calls & Invitations. But within a little, she bursted out in tears
& weeping, crying out, Oh my Sins! my Sins! He will not receive me, He
will not receive me, I’m the chief of Sinners. The Minister reply’d, are you a
greater Sinner that the Apostle Paul? he was the Chief of Sinners, as he calls
himself, yet he obtained mercy, Christ forgave him all his Sins, & received
him into favour; and he is set forth as a Pattern & Instance of the Riches of
the free grace & mercy of Christ, to encourage others to beheve on him to
the End of the World: come to him then, and ye shall obtain mercy, as the
Apostle Paul did. She again crying out, Oh, but he will not receive me, he
will not accept of me: my Sins! my Sins! Yes, he will accept of you, said the
Minister: What greater Evidences would you have of his willingness to accept
of you: he shed his precious [270/—] blood, his hearts blood, out of love to
such as you, and his blood can cleanse you from all your Sins, be what they
will, & fetch out the deepest stain of them on your Soul: he hath made peace
by the blood of his Cross: the blood of Christ, who thro’ the Eternal Spirit
offered himself a Sacrifice without spot to God, will purge your Conscience
from dead works, to fit you for serving the living God. She hereupon stopt
her crying & calm’d a little, and said mournfully. Oh! but I cannot beheve in
the Lord Jesus Christ that I may be saved. Will you, said he, cry out to him
with that poor man in the Gospel, Lord, I believe, or Lord I would believe,
help thou my Unbelief. She immediatly fell to repeating these words, and did
with her whole heart aim at the Exercise of faith in Christ, and was in some
measure helped to it (as she told afterwards) and then refrain’d her weeping a
little: but, unbelief again prevailing, she in a short space, cry’d out again, Oh!
He will not accept of me. [I]11 but he will, said the Minister, himself assures
you he will; whosoever will let him take of the water of life freely. But she
going on weeping bitterly, Come said the Minister, Shall we pray for a Pull
of Gods Almighty Arm to draw you to Christ. O yes, yes, said she, and got
up on her feet. Some of the Company said she would not be able to stand
(for that was the Posture design’d) in time of Prayer: There is no fear of that,
[271/—] said one standing by, I will take care of that, said he, & so took hold
of her arm: And the Minister began the Prayer, with Adorations of the Love
of God in giving the Son of his Love for a perishing World of Elect Sinners,
Insertion [‘himself assures you’]: McCulloch.
Aye.