Series 6 > McCulloch examinations of the Cambuslang revival (1742) > Volume 6

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EXAMINATIONS OF PERSONS UNDER SPIRITUAL CONCERN II
are whole need not the physician, but they that are sick,14 but I did not find
my self sick & so thought I would not seek after the Physician. Hearing a
Minr (Mr Wm Ham. D-ss)15 on these words. This is the cup & the N. T. &c :16
I haved almost no when he was exhorting several sorts of sinners to come to
Christ, I found a great stir in me & after Sermon, tho’ I had no thoughts
before of communicating, I went & got a Token to communicate, but by as
dead and stupid as a stone again, both at the Table & after it: But what I heard
that Minr say concerning Camb. & the work there, That there were some
that call it a delusion but for his own part, he durst not call it so for his life,
no nor for his soul, which was more than life, or for 10,000 worlds: for he
has been there & had seen with his eyes & heard with his ears & been acquaint
with the work there & was persuaded that it was of God. This raisd in me a
great desire in my mind to come, & I found an impression on my Spirit that
I might go there. Telling it to one that I designd to do so, he said God pity
thee, for if thou go there, thou’ll be put stark mad, But I told him That to
Camb. I would go, tho I should be both to bind & to hold. Before I came off
next Sabb. [ ]17 to Camb. I prayd the Lord might carry me not go off the way
nor fall into bad company, & was kept when going to could get no body
coming to it to bear me company. Coming there & seing a Minr (Mr McC)18
coming down the Path going to the Tent to preach, when ever I look’d to
him my heart took a beating, tho’ I did not know for what. I joind in singing
the Ps. he appointed to be sung at the Entry with more than ordinary
sweetness : & heard the prayer with a great deal of satisfaction. Hearing him
preach on that Text, If ye live after the flesh ye shall die, but if ye thro’ the
Spirit mortify the deeds of the flesh ye shall live.191 found a stir in my heart
at hearing the Text read, but felt not much more, till he said If ye will not
take a look of the death & sufferings of the Lord Jesus Christ & will ye take
a [219/-] look of your own death & then take a look of his. These words I
found come home with great power on my heart & cryd out in my heart
What shall I do to be saved: but I did not cry out among the people: I would
have set my mind to think of my own death, but I got but a small glance of
a thought of it, till I fell immediatly into great distress of soul for my sins on
the account of the dishonour done to God by them, which I then saw to be
so great that I thought they were enough to have drownd a whole world in
a flood of the wrath of God: I also had my thought turnd to think of the
death of Christ & his sufferings, & fear my sins to be procuring cause of his
sufferings, as if there had been no other persons sins but mine to do it, and I
14 Mt9:12,Mk2:17, Lk 5:31.
15 William Hamilton (1689-1769) — minister, Douglas.
16 Lk 22:20.
17 Insertion [‘Aug 1’]: McCulloch.
18 William McCulloch (1691-1771) - minister, Cambuslang.
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