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EXAMINATIONS OF PERSONS UNDER SPIRITUAL CONCERN II
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were kept staid on it, Isaiy. Look unto me all ye Ends of the Earth & be ye
saved,4 and Oh! What a greedy grasp did my poor Soul give at Christ at the
reading of it, and I thereupon found my mind much composed, & framed
to attend to the Sermon. About an hour after this, that word came into my
mind. The blood of Jesus Christ cleanses from all Sin,5 which gave a vast deal
of ease to my mind and conscience; and Satans temptations to think that my
Salvation was impossible, were not so strong & powerful on me, & I thought
that precious blood of Christ might yet cleanse me from all my sins, how
many & hainous so ever. I came [37/-] straight home to prayer, & hastned to
retire by my self, & found more freedom in that duty [ ]6 than ever I did all
my life before. And ere I rose from my knees, I got such a persuasion of the
All sufficiency of the merit of Christs blood, that I saw it was perfectly able
to wash away all my Sins. And at the same time I got such a Sight by faith of
the infinite amiableness of Christs person, that I was, so to speak, o’re head &
ears & all in love to him. And ever since that time, hearing Christ preached,
praying and praising God in my Family, & by my Self alone, is just become
a perfect pleasure and a delight to me. And every time I hear his Gospel
and partake of the Holy Sacrament of the Supper, I see more & more of his
Beauty and desirableness; & more and more of Fullness and fittedness in him
to answer all my wants and neccessities. My soul is more & more [38/-] led
out to a hearty well-pleasedness with the method of Gods Saving Sinners by
Jesus Christ; & despair of all other ways of Salvation but that & that only. My
soul now trembles at the thought of sin, and particularly, the remembrance
of my former evil ways is terrible and bitter to me. I have a day lie fight and
struggle with a body of Sin and death within me, which draws many a weary
groan from me, and reconciles me to the thoughts of death, & makes it in
some measure sweet to me, in hopes that then I shall be delivered from the
very being of [...]. I have no delight in conversing with one living soul,
but such as I think have the grace of God in them. I have no ambition to be
rich in the world. I would not give a fig for all the Riches of the Indies; if I
might be rich in faith, food and raiment is all I want of worldly kind, and I
trust God will not deny me that. Carnal & worldly pleasures are now turn’d
insipid & tasteless to me, and my only the great pleasure []7 now is to be
found in Christ, & to enjoy communion with him here & for ever hereafter.
To his name be Glory. Amen.
[39/-] I find Satan very often assaulting me, by his suggestions, tho he never
appeard to me in any visible shape. One time lately this same Summer (1744)
when attending at the Sacrament Occasion at Kilsyth, and being out in the
4 Isa 45:22.
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6 Insertion [‘of Secret Prayer’]: McCulloch.
7 Insertion [‘I now aim at’]: McCulloch.