Lady Victoria Campbell

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have the worth of years. Deeper, more fervent love
to Him will be one of my chief aims during this
year into which we have entered. It was when the
disciples " feared as they entered into the cloud "
that they heard the voice of God telling them it was
His beloved Son, to whom they were to give heed.
Let us seek, in trying and dark hours, to hear what
He will have to say to us, even though He speaks
in the darkness. We may have to tell it out in the
Light.
Sunday, March 20th, 1881. Aegyll Lodge.
It has been with a feeling of surprise I sit down
to write a few lines in this fragmentary journal,
as I see the length of time which has elapsed since
my doing so. More than three months ! To-
morrow spring begins, and never before has it
awakened within me such a sense of the Resurrec-
tion life, after the long, cold, dark, and anxious
winter.
In January, after my return to London, I was
struck down with an attack much like the one I
had at Cannes, and for four or five weeks I led a
complete invalid life. One night I wondered
whether it was to be my last. Accompanied with
a feeling of fear, which, in view of death, distressed
me ; for surely if we are trusting Him simply and
implicitly it will be robbed of its terrors. I think
a sense of the importance and supremacy of the
home life and its duties were given to me at this
time, and such a feeling of rest and gratitude