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VIOLATION OF THE PLEDGE.
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felt at the moment, it would be impossible for me to de¬
scribe. Euin, inevitable ruin, stared me in the face. By
one rash and inconsiderate act, I had undone the work of
months, betrayed the confidence reposed in me by friends,
and blasted every hope for the future. To say that 1 felt
miserable, would only give a faint idea of my state. For
five months I had battled with my enemy, and defied him
when he appeared armed with all his terrors; but now,
when I fondly fancied him a conquered foe, and had sung
in the broad face of day my paeans of victory to hundreds
and thousands of listeners, he had craftily wrought my
downfall. I was like some bark,
“ Which stood the storm when winds were rough,
But in a sunny hour, fell off;
Like ships that have gone down at sea
When heaven was all tranquillity.”
My accursed appetite, too, which I deemed eradicated,
I found had only slept; the single glass I had taken,
roused my powerful and now successful enemy. I argued
with myself that as I had made one false step, matters
could not be made worse by taking another. So, yielding
to temptation, I swallowed three or four more potations,
and slept that night at the h6tel.
With the morning, reflection came; and fearful, indeed,
appeared to me my situation. Without drinking again,
I started in the cars for Newburyport, painfully feeling
but not exhibiting any signs of having indulged in the
intemperate cup on the previous evening.
At Newburyport an unlooked-for trial awaited me,—I
was invited to speak for the temperance society there. I
felt that 1 had no claim now to be heard, although I bit¬
terly repented my retrograde movement; but at length I
consented to speak, and did so, both on the Sunday and
the following Monday. To Worcester I dreaded return-
113
felt at the moment, it would be impossible for me to de¬
scribe. Euin, inevitable ruin, stared me in the face. By
one rash and inconsiderate act, I had undone the work of
months, betrayed the confidence reposed in me by friends,
and blasted every hope for the future. To say that 1 felt
miserable, would only give a faint idea of my state. For
five months I had battled with my enemy, and defied him
when he appeared armed with all his terrors; but now,
when I fondly fancied him a conquered foe, and had sung
in the broad face of day my paeans of victory to hundreds
and thousands of listeners, he had craftily wrought my
downfall. I was like some bark,
“ Which stood the storm when winds were rough,
But in a sunny hour, fell off;
Like ships that have gone down at sea
When heaven was all tranquillity.”
My accursed appetite, too, which I deemed eradicated,
I found had only slept; the single glass I had taken,
roused my powerful and now successful enemy. I argued
with myself that as I had made one false step, matters
could not be made worse by taking another. So, yielding
to temptation, I swallowed three or four more potations,
and slept that night at the h6tel.
With the morning, reflection came; and fearful, indeed,
appeared to me my situation. Without drinking again,
I started in the cars for Newburyport, painfully feeling
but not exhibiting any signs of having indulged in the
intemperate cup on the previous evening.
At Newburyport an unlooked-for trial awaited me,—I
was invited to speak for the temperance society there. I
felt that 1 had no claim now to be heard, although I bit¬
terly repented my retrograde movement; but at length I
consented to speak, and did so, both on the Sunday and
the following Monday. To Worcester I dreaded return-
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Description | Thousands of printed books from the Antiquarian Books of Scotland collection which dates from 1641 to the 1980s. The collection consists of 14,800 books which were published in Scotland or have a Scottish connection, e.g. through the author, printer or owner. Subjects covered include sport, education, diseases, adventure, occupations, Jacobites, politics and religion. Among the 29 languages represented are English, Gaelic, Italian, French, Russian and Swedish. |
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