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TALES OF THE BORDERS.
rejoiced in his brightness. Alas! it was but for a moment;
my guilty love, my treachery, my loss, all flashed upon my
mind at once, and I started to my feet, and hurried madly
onwards, as if I hoped, by the rapidity of my movements,
to escape from my own thoughts. Hunger at last com¬
pelled me to enter a small public-house, where I fell in
with a poor sailor, who was on his way to Liverpool in
search of a ship. The sight of this man turned my thoughts
into another channel. ‘Double-dyed traitor that I am,’
muttered I, ‘ England is no longer a home for me. She
for whose love I broke a father’s heart and betrayed a bro¬
ther’s confidence, has been torn from me; and Avhat more
have I to live for here ? ’ My mind was made up.
“ ‘My lad,’ said I to the sailor, ‘ if you have no objection,
we will travel together; I am bound to Liverpool myself.’
“‘With all my heart,’ said he; ‘I like to sail in com¬
pany.’
“I engaged to work my passage out before the mast, in
a ship bound to Jamaica, intending to turn my education
to some account there if possible, or, at all events, to re¬
main there as long as my money lasted. When I saw the
shores of my native land sink in the distance, I felt that I
was a forlorn and miserable outcast—that the last link was
severed that bound me to existence. A dark change came
over me; a spirit of desperation and reckless indiffereEce;
a longing wish to end my miseries at once. I strove against
the evil spirit; and for a while succeeded. On our arrival
at Kingston, I endeavoured in vain to obtain employment;
my stock of money was fast decreasing; and when that was
gone, where was I to turn for more ? Poverty and wretch¬
edness threatened me from without; remorse was busy
within. ‘ Why should I bear this weary load of life ?’ said
I, as I madly paced the shore, ‘when one bold plunge
would bury it for ever ? ’
“ I threw myself headlong into the water; and, though
TALES OF THE BORDERS.
rejoiced in his brightness. Alas! it was but for a moment;
my guilty love, my treachery, my loss, all flashed upon my
mind at once, and I started to my feet, and hurried madly
onwards, as if I hoped, by the rapidity of my movements,
to escape from my own thoughts. Hunger at last com¬
pelled me to enter a small public-house, where I fell in
with a poor sailor, who was on his way to Liverpool in
search of a ship. The sight of this man turned my thoughts
into another channel. ‘Double-dyed traitor that I am,’
muttered I, ‘ England is no longer a home for me. She
for whose love I broke a father’s heart and betrayed a bro¬
ther’s confidence, has been torn from me; and Avhat more
have I to live for here ? ’ My mind was made up.
“ ‘My lad,’ said I to the sailor, ‘ if you have no objection,
we will travel together; I am bound to Liverpool myself.’
“‘With all my heart,’ said he; ‘I like to sail in com¬
pany.’
“I engaged to work my passage out before the mast, in
a ship bound to Jamaica, intending to turn my education
to some account there if possible, or, at all events, to re¬
main there as long as my money lasted. When I saw the
shores of my native land sink in the distance, I felt that I
was a forlorn and miserable outcast—that the last link was
severed that bound me to existence. A dark change came
over me; a spirit of desperation and reckless indiffereEce;
a longing wish to end my miseries at once. I strove against
the evil spirit; and for a while succeeded. On our arrival
at Kingston, I endeavoured in vain to obtain employment;
my stock of money was fast decreasing; and when that was
gone, where was I to turn for more ? Poverty and wretch¬
edness threatened me from without; remorse was busy
within. ‘ Why should I bear this weary load of life ?’ said
I, as I madly paced the shore, ‘when one bold plunge
would bury it for ever ? ’
“ I threw myself headlong into the water; and, though
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Description | Thousands of printed books from the Antiquarian Books of Scotland collection which dates from 1641 to the 1980s. The collection consists of 14,800 books which were published in Scotland or have a Scottish connection, e.g. through the author, printer or owner. Subjects covered include sport, education, diseases, adventure, occupations, Jacobites, politics and religion. Among the 29 languages represented are English, Gaelic, Italian, French, Russian and Swedish. |
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